Story of a lifetime

Kiss me at the gate

2009-11-08T08:30:00.000-08:00

Kiss me at the gate
Like none of this had ever happened
We make believe today
But soon we will be back to normal

7.11.09

2009-11-06T09:42:00.000-08:00

Kiss me at the gate.

off the shadow

2009-11-01T06:08:00.000-08:00

Finally off the shadow again. & the mood for blogging is there again. Funny how my mood comes and goes. To be frank,Lazy bum I guess hohoho. Well Im back aint I.

So whats up? Typical question don't u think so.

Well alot of things change. Only one thing has not change, my love for cancer stick. sigh. Seriously need to quit smoking. Maybe next year would be a good start. haha no no no. Gahh..

Still kinda lazy to blog but yea..this would be a good start.

hello there ;)

The office

2009-06-13T05:38:00.000-07:00

Poklen moments HAHAHAHA sigh

Things that I miss the most

2009-06-13T05:34:00.000-07:00

Somehow still missing you.

So not me at all. hmm..
Please kill my ego

Suitcases and travelbags

2009-06-09T09:36:00.000-07:00

Gabe bondoc - Suitcases and travelbags

For goodness's sake when we need a break, she tells me
There's too much on her plate, and I'm not helping
I was under the impression that things were fine, for the longest time
I'm not the type to ignore your rights if you're leaving
But oh my god, I could not believe that you're leaving
I pray to goodness that you'll wanna come back
But until then, I guess you've gotta pack

Suitcases and travel bags
Are you ever coming back
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon
Suitcases and travel bags
I can't sit here and watch you pack
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon, come home soon

This is the sound of a man that's still in love with you
A man that can't understand just why our heart's in two
But when you speak to me and justify so eloquently
When you try to make me see
But you will have to forgive me, I guess I'm old-school
Just wanna talk back and forth and work it out with you
How's leaving home gonna make you wanna come back
If you can answer, I'll leave and let you pack

Suitcases and travel bags
If you're ever coming back
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon
Suitcases and travel bags
I can't sit and watch you pack
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon, come home soon

There's a lot to be said but baby, if you're just over it
I won't waste my breath, waste my breath
Could've sworn we were cool but I guess I was fooled
But I guess I was, guess I was
I'm not sure what this means, I'm not sure what separation brings
So if you're gonna go, do what it do
You can find me in the other room

Suitcases and travel bags
If you're ever coming back
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon
Suitcases and travel bags
I can't sit and watch you pack
Just leave a couple of things for me
Oh, leave me your sweet perfume
Spray it around the room
And I'll pray that you'll come home soon, come home soon

I'm so into this song. Been listening to it over and over and i don't know why.

loving it I am.

Gloomy it may seem

2009-06-02T09:31:00.000-07:00

The sky was kinda gloomy unlike any usual days and it kinda made me think twice of jogging at the park. Plus the mood wasn't there at all so i tame myself wit a quick nap while listening to my ipod around 5pm. There are plenty reasons 4 me to leave the house yet for no reason I chose to stay at home.

Woke up around 9.30+ and still everything around me kinda slow hmm. Though I'm not hungry , still i feel like munching on something. Went downstairs and saw elah and khai dating while watching TV. Watching them made me kinda miss all the comfort feelings and somehow I kinda drop my ego feeling envy towards them. I don't miss my past but I just miss those feelings *sigh*. Now I found myself learning to get through all by myself which is still kinda new for me, good enough I guess.

Enough of that, now its 2.16 am and still sitting in front of lappy wit green tea on my side. Something that I always do every night like browsing or bloging or whatsoever, anything that can fill my time and keeps my brain running. huhu.

Sleepy I am now indeed. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me.Yea, I can't wait for amir to be back in Brunei. hehe. :D and and and... I'm hungry *sigh*. I want soto please hehe. I'm so craving for soto. hmmm

Karma

2009-06-01T02:51:00.000-07:00

Confucius says karma is a bitch

Lil angel

2009-05-30T05:08:00.000-07:00

Happy 1st year birthday to baby zaza!

Can i book u in the future? :) hehe!

Midnight note

2009-05-28T11:24:00.000-07:00

Hope I could just be there for you to ease your pain.

Get well please.

*sigh*

Time will tell

2009-05-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

No I'm not the man I used to be lately
See you met me at an interesting time
If my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside

Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby

- John mayer

Birthday

2009-05-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Haswani
21 right? hehe

May allah bless u

=)

Random me 2009

2009-05-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

Smiling yet falling

2009-05-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

We smile
We laugh
but when the day comes
Everything went falling apart
Questions arise
Confusion appears
Mistakes made.

Should have been patience about it.
Should have wait a lil bit longer...
But I fail you.

It seems that we're doin fine..
But things are not done as it seems
won't expect your forgiveness
won't expect that you'll accept my explaination

but your understanding is all i need
Cos we are now smiling yet falling
*sigh*

Fell in love

2009-05-12T05:57:00.000-07:00

Well I've been to many places and I spent most of my days traveling round
I took a lot of chances and I had romances all over town.
It was almost my religion you don't fall in love and you just kiss and say goodbye.
I have left many missing me but to say I didn't care would be a lie.

I fell in love every time
I fell in love weak heart of mine

Love has brought me trouble and I had a lot of rubble on the way.
One girl wants to play the part that the night before i blindly gave away.
I really care about you babe. I promise I wont ever let you down.

I've tried to be so careful with what I said
My heart was never helpful towards my head

Shadow

2009-05-09T08:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I could hold you but yeah....
Dying to see you again but yeah...
I miss everything about you but yeah...

Wish things could be different.
*Sigh*

Cookie jar

2008-12-31T23:29:00.000-08:00

I like girls, they like me
They look so good in they Seven jeans
Want you to be the one, and my only
I wanna be faithful but i cant keep my hands out the cookie jar

Nino Playground

2008-12-07T02:37:00.001-08:00

Danau beach

2008-12-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

Wants

2008-12-03T20:04:00.000-08:00

Ipod Touch

HTC touch pro

Sony Ericson Xperia X1

I pod commercial- Metro station "Shake it"

2008-12-03T19:52:00.000-08:00

I dont know if this the official commercial for Ipod but whatever ryt. hehe

Death star canteen

2008-11-29T10:16:00.000-08:00

Badass

2008-11-27T03:53:00.000-08:00

IT roadshow 5th - 6th Nov 08 at BLNG

2008-11-13T05:52:00.000-08:00

Taken by Azri

Taken ameala and ros

Foot shoe?

2008-11-11T04:52:00.000-08:00

Amir's so called new (foot shoe?).. correct me if I'm wrong haha

Please do come by

2008-11-03T07:32:00.000-08:00

Visit my other blog.

www.onografix.blogspot.com

http://onografix.blogspot.com/

A fresh start

2008-11-03T06:42:00.000-08:00

After few years gone by, now I have the feeling back in designing. Inspired and motivated to a new level of designing. Goodbye Photoshop and hello Illustrator. Aim ; to start my own designing site or perhaps the next wardrobe..waseh hahaha setayi. Yet my dad promise me an IMAC.

I will open one new blog which features only designs. Hope u all will visit it when it is published. huhu

Here is some steps that I did for a simple vectors using Illustrator. U will see most of this in my new blog.

onografix.blogspot.com

Raya Moments

2008-10-11T07:11:00.001-07:00

Farewell

2008-10-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

Bye2 azrul

Traffic along the way

Rafi and his bum bum

Ayoi and alisut

1st day of raya

2008-10-10T20:32:00.000-07:00

Zaza

Haikal

Taken by daddy

Daddy's new baby

Ijul and his so called (rasingan?)

Aizat

Haikal again

Mom's side

Ziqah

Dad's side

Still I...

2008-09-19T12:35:00.000-07:00

Sat 03:36:41 am, still sitting in front of the PC.

Still thinking what to blog.
Still downloading songs.
Still listening to Rachel's "Water from the same source". This song brings the sorrow feeling as if I was standing on the middle of the raining street. I don't know why but I'm in a mood in listening this type of song now, Kinda deep ey hehe. Try listen to it.
Still can't shut my eyes.
Still hoping for a full puasa this year. So far so good.
Still everything around me look cliche
Still thinks jonas brothers are faggots with guitars. *no offense*
Still thinks Simple plan should collaborate with alvin & the chipmunks cos they are look alike and they have the same voice. I think they are related
Still smoking and alive =D
Sat 04:11:29 am Still listening to Rachel's " Water from the same source"
Still not feeling hungry.
Still in a smoking mood, I think I should sahur now by just smoking.I It'll be o.k I guess
Still feels guilty about everything till now.

Fai, off...

Rubikaholic?

2008-09-12T23:52:00.001-07:00

Congrats to Zul and Mimi =)

2008-06-22T22:51:00.000-07:00

Buifren ku kana ambil dah..nahan rasa ja ku 2 liat haha

Bunga and lilin boys hoho Cuba liat mua c boy ah dark usulnya huhu

Lazybum

2008-06-07T09:56:00.000-07:00

I feel so lazy to blog and I don't know why. So much to say, so much free time but I'm lazy. canatah tu..huhu. Exams over anyway =D

oh yes, Happy belated birthday to tiera and big cuzzy ebemz

What else ey, Qamar kana karma hohoho

Affy is a happy bunny now (That's what I heard)huhu Komodo fy, komodo haha

I have my own guitar now (sekadar..booo)

Having presentation on monday.(o_O)

My mom baught Lancer EX (p aku inda kana suruh drive =( sigh)

Euro 2008 of course..(Go France, Portugal , Czech and Brazil apakann haha)

I want X box 360 pls or PS 3 pls huhu

I wana change my blogskin but of course I'm lazy..hehe

May it is

2008-05-04T23:44:00.000-07:00

Yup it's may already.
Hope it will not turn out to be bitter like last year.
sigh

Comforting sound

2008-04-26T11:33:00.000-07:00

The songs I used to hear back in the days.

Kings of convenience -"Cayman Island"

Mew - " Comforting sound"

Ignore the intro..From the 1.35th minute till the end is the best part.Beautiful , for me though =)

Tips how to be .....

2008-04-26T10:59:00.000-07:00

Male & Female are equal

2008-04-05T10:20:00.000-07:00

I just don't know why people keep saying "Boys are all the same" or "Girls are all the same"...Some might say "Boys are so ego!" or "Girls & their PMS pffft!"..This type of behavior is what I called sexism don't yea think...a bit la oh..huhu

From my opinion, boys and girls are the same but in their own ways. Boys i can just say their ego and for the girls, their PMS of course. Its just a normal habitat for boys & girls. Boys can't blame girls and girls can't blame boys. Of course when they see this they will like ,Girls " hey, not all of us have issue with PMS ok!" . ok fine, so do guys.. not all of us are egoistic type. am i right?

The main reason why both sexes are so against to each other;
simple...numbers of failure relationship. (especially been cheated by their partner)

ok, sorry for the lose.. numbers of failure relationship doesn't mean you can't date anymore or non-existence of a perfect ideal partner. There's always be one right in front of your eyes. For you they are just invisible due to their unattractive looks or a very close bonding (friendship). This type of people could have been the ideal person for you but it always ends up "Ur sweet and nice but I just don't have those type of feeling for you". This what they called the friendship zone. Yet that person accept it though it kinda sucks. sucks right.right

Yes,boys can be ego sometime but some are just too slow to understand girls. It'll take a while. Reasons why we boys are slow when it comes to serious relationship and understanding the girls.;

Boys only watches and reads sports and non-romantic book/show.(hardcore). It doesn't show "10 tips how to love a girl" or "How to melt the female partner". U don't see that in a sports mags. While female reads mags which contain all those romantic stuff *include make up & wardrobe though*..In those mags, it shows a lot of tips about relationship. Of course girls do have this desire when they read it.Girls expectation towards their partner increases. So u understand why guys are kinda slow about it. *unless they cheat you =/ *sigh*.

My point is..don't point the wrongs of the opposite sex. Not all of them are the same. I've been through all, well kinda..so I'm kinda understand the boys & girls situation. Its just my opinion not facts.=). I just believe both boys and girls have the same problems. So yea..we are equal.=)

Rate it.

2008-04-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

Here are some the cartoon i've done ..Please rate it. =)..Opinion are acceptable..& yes Criticism as well.

Cartoon 1

Cartoon 2

Hope u all like it..

out

like a star

2008-03-28T12:27:00.000-07:00

corrine bailey rae - like a star

Something to laugh about

2008-03-25T19:44:00.000-07:00

I miss this video huhhuhu

Happy b'day eggboy!

2008-03-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to qamaruz aka jejak kasih man =)

told yea that I wont forget ur b'day...hint2 g 2 hohoho

Scenario on regrets

2008-03-20T12:55:00.000-07:00

Rain keeps coming which prevented the rainbow to appear. I was standing at the bus stop waiting for the rain to stop so I can go home. I guess the sky was sad about something, I can tell. Luckily i was not alone waiting there.

While in the waiting, then one called life looked at me and ask me "Hows life treating you? " & I replied " Good, I guess". Then awkward appear and ask me this question " Do you ever feel regret for your past?". Then I go "Erm I used to..But now, I don't feel regrets for my past at all". Curiosity suddenly standing in front of me and he ask "Why are you not regretting at all after what you've done to the past?". I calmly answer " True, I did a lot of mistakes in the past. But there's no use of regretting for what have been done. I have no regrets towards my past because along the way, It was a great experience and I've learned a lot from my mistakes from my past". Past turned to me and ask " So are you happy now with your new life?" and I simply answer "You mean now? You bet I am. Happy as a bunny" and I continue "Dear past, I will try not to repeat it again because this current life isn't that bad after all..I'm loving it". Then future out of nowhere comes aggressively and ask "Are you sure you will be happy from now on". and with a smile I answer " Hope so, Time will tell". I keep rubbing and blowing my hand to keep myself warm and looks at the sky hoping the rain to stop.

The rain stops all of a sudden, the sun shines my face & rainbow appears as how I imagine it.Then I walk away from that place without saying goodbye. Then they go shouting " Where are you going? are you ignoring us?". I turned and say "Ignoring you was not my intention, It's better to be this way. It's hard but it's okay." I just smile. Then they called me again "One last question, where are you going ?". I simply answer " to her whom is called happiness of course, where else". Smile & leave the scene.

Quotes of the day

2008-03-20T03:45:00.000-07:00

“The past is but the beginning
of a beginning.”
H.G. Wells

“Greatness is not achieved by chance,
but by deliberate effort and toil.”
M.K. Soni

“Patience is the key to paradise.”
Turkish Proverb

“It’s the ‘start’ that
‘stops’ most people.”
Author Unknown

“A little impatience will spoil great plans.”
Chinese Proverb

“For the unlearned, old age is winter.
For the learned it is the season of the harvest.”
Hasidic Saying

“Before sunlight can shine through a window,
the blinds must be raised.”
American Proverb

Feed your thoughts with these valuable quotes =)

oh yea, I almost forgot..I have few quotes to be added..

"True, we love life, not because we are used to living, but because we are used to loving. There is always some madness in love, but there is also always some reason in madness." - Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche (1844-1900) German Philosopher, Poet

"True love begins when nothing is looked for in return." - Antoine De Saint-Exupery (1900-1944) French Aviator, Writer

Music brings out the emotional within me

2008-03-20T03:19:00.000-07:00

The songs that I currently listen to

1. Emmy rossum "Slow me down" =)
2. Avril lavigne "I will be"=)
3. Lemar "Another day"
4. Rufus Wainright " Across the Universe"
5. Gregg Laswell "Amazed" & "High & Low"
6. Kylie Minogue "In my arm" & " Wow" * thanks to "the girl who is"*
7. Snow patrol "You could be happy"
8. Sia "Breathe me"
9. Lifehouse "Everything"
10. A fine frenzy "Almost lover"
11. Sarah bareilles "Love song"
12. Colby colliat "Little thing " & "bubbly"
13. *fav* Funeral for a friend " Juneau(acoustic)", "History" & "hospitality"
14. Aqualung "Strange & beautiful"

If you all listen to any of this songs then you are my friend, if ur not, move away.hahaha just kiddin. =p

Love letters

2008-03-17T09:53:00.000-07:00

When I was 16, I have my first crush at Ugama school. HAHAHA. At that age, everyone was desperately wants a GF cause almost everybody have GF. So it's like you aren't cool if u don't have a gf.HAHA Of course we try to flirt, but I was a very shy kid towards girls. I also experienced my first rejection at this age. & it didnt stop there,I have quite a lot of rejection in a row back then .HAhAhA. Then after a while, I finally have my very own gf. Of course at that time writing letters including biodata was normal as if it was a CV for working application. I just cant believe that I wrote those letters. Its hilarious man HAHAHA. Check this out.

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Assalamualaikum

Apa Khabar saudari di sana? Harap saudari di sana baik di samping keluarga. Saya di sini baik.

Ini adalah Biodata saya yg saudari hendak

Nama : Fairuz
Nama gelaran: Fai
Age : 16
Zodiak: Taurus
Fav color : Biru
No. telepon : 33******
Fav song:*******
Fav sport: Soccer

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.....................................................................

Saya juga telah sediakn gambar saya untuk saudari. Harap saudari mnyukai nya. No. tepon rumah saya juga saya sedia kn. Harap saudari akan call saya. Saya akan menanti panggilan saudari.

Terima kasih, Harap balas

Yg benar,

..................................................

Saudara Fairuz"
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I still can remember some of it. I just can't believe that I wrote this type of letter.!!!!HAHAHAHA

I was "ancing" wa b4. Panat wa. Nah malu tia ku nah HAHAHA. sigh

Cucur ayam & bimbit

2008-03-14T09:41:00.000-07:00

I 've learned new words from the guys lately. Both malay & english hehe. Yes I'm talking about you both qamar & affy. hehe

1st conversation was about cucur ayam.

Qamar : cucur ayam
Affy : OTT haha
Me : Cucur ayam? OTT?
Qomar & Affy : yes
Me : Apa 2? OTT?
Qamar : Over the top wa haha
Affy : Gnarley haha
Me : *Confused*
Affy : Cucur ayam is over the top. hahaha
Me : ok... but i still dont get it why cucur? & why of all cucur, cucur ayam ni wa
Affy & Qamar : hahahaha *specific reason*
Affy : Gnarley
me : ok..cucur ayam ni wa. kalo OUT tau plng ku 2 cucur apa. Cucur durian laee* eww*
Qamar : ada cucur ayam kn?
Affy : err
Me : ada kali ah.
Qamar : eh awu oh, KFC *bimbo*
Affy : err
Me : ukan la, yg cam boxing chicken ah ukan plng ayam 2 be tinju. ah never mind then..
Qamar : Tinju HAHAHA
Affy : HAHAHAHAHA
Me : Utama kn bahasa melayu wa * polish nail* HAHAH.

ok now, new conversation ..this time bimbit.

Qamar : Mana ko fai?
Affy : err
Me : Sory bth, pyh wa,tasbih telepon bimbit ku tadi. melayan msg gf lae
Qamar : Bimbit HAHAHA
Affy : HAHAHA
Me : Bimbit lae HAHAHA
Me: Napa drg panggil bimbit kn?
Affy : err
Qamar : bimbit ni handy kn meaning tani pigang. * eyo handal BM ah*
Me : oh ok.. ukan cute kn ertinya *bimbo*.
Me : Sal bimbit ni bunyi nya cam cute ah huhuh * bimbo again*
Affy : err
Qamar : awu oh hahaha * another bimbo*
Qamar : cam " Bimbit jua anak mu lai" HAHAHA
ME : HAHAHAHA
Affy : HAHAHAHA
ME : "Bimbit wa parut ku kali ah" HAHAHA
Affy : HAHAHA
Qamar : HAHAHAHA
Me : Chumelll

well thats about it.

oh yea for qamar " Nyaman ka inda ia 2?" HAHAHAHA. U know what i mean.

bye2

The goddess of all

2008-03-13T13:03:00.000-07:00

My top ten fav female celebrities

1. Kate beckinsale
2. Jessica Alba
3. Megan Fox
4. Avril Lavigne
5. Mika HAHAHA not. It's Angelina Jolie of course.
6. Jennifer Aniston
7. VJ Sara of [V]
8. Amanda Bynes
9. Ashlee Simpson
10. Hillary duff

I have a great desire for her. Someone that I wouldn't say NO to. =). Oh please take me with you huhu

Oh yea , played poker with the guys. (Qomar ,Rafi, boy, and Affy). Told you guys I will grab all of your chips =D. *Blowing & Shining nail*.

The return of fai

2008-03-10T06:00:00.001-07:00

GOSH! how i miss blogging.. Its been a while *again*. Theres a lot of stuff that i would love to share to u all bloggers out there. But first...a question that i must answer.

"Where have I been?"

Answer: Busy with project, editing,assignment, test and presentation. All in one stuck in my head. Deep stress? yea kinda. But im kinda not trying to be stress abt it. I still need to hang out with my friends. U knw ,release some stress. I dont wana be under pressure where all my brain cell pops. 2 times in a week chilling with friends would be ok.

So there u are, the answer to ur question. Its all abt school. Speaking of school, so far so good. I pass all the recent test and assignments. Everything is going to what I hope it 2 be.What is left is just final test, Project and final presentation.

Oh yea, since im in ND2 final year, of course there is an attachment. So whats my choice.?

1st choice : BLNG
2ndChoice : BSP
3rd Choice : Baker Hughes

I do hope that I'll get my 1st choice. I do really want it. In future, I wana work there hehe.Wish me luck

ok enough about school.

Whats new besides that? Oh yea, I have a new baby , a kitten that is.=D. Yes i have a new kitten from tyma. We called her spady =) yup spady as in spade but with a "y" huhu.

Welcome to the family

Check out the wardrobe. Turtle neck sleeveless huhuhu

ok I'm off..will update soon. There's more to that where it came from.*maybe*

p.s. I want to change my blogskin but im too lazy hehe. Please change it for me =)

Next blog "My top ten favorite female celebrity"

Before & after marriage

2008-02-08T07:59:00.000-08:00

Something that i've found from my e mail. & its not entirely true but funny.

> > Before marriage....
> >
> > He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
> > She: Do you want me to leave?
> > He: No! Don't even think about it.
> > She: Do you love me?
> > He: Of course! Over and over!
> > She: Have you ever cheated on me?
> > He: No! Why are you even asking?
> > She: Will you kiss me?
> > He: Every chance I get.
> > She: Will you hit me?
> > He: Are you crazy! I'm not that kind of person!
> > She: Can I trust you?
> > He: Yes.
> > She: Darling!
> >
> > After marriage....
> > Simply read from bottom to top.

Huge Disapoint ment.

2008-02-01T11:16:00.000-08:00

I was shocked when Qamar told me that the Tel Bru front cover design results for top 25 are out. So i was eagerly to check my mail hoping that I qualified for the top 25, at least. Results, no e mail from tel bru meaning I didn't qualified at all!. When I checked the website, they've already Unveil the winners. Obviously i didn't win it. It got me real bad which i don't know why. I was hoping that I could win it.
The 1st prize was $2500
2nd prize $1500
3rd prize $ 500

Thats quite a lot of money you know. Plus it's not just about the money, honestly...It was also for my parents. I really do wanna prove to them that i can be a winner at something. All this times, I've been a failure in many ways. For once, I really want to win something, something that is big like this competition. I was hoping that I could win ,badly.. I could just feel it you know. Do you ever feel like as if you could feel that you'll get it & you'll know that you gonna win?.. Do you? But turns out I fail, not just to myself but also to every people who have been giving me hope especially to my parents. In the end, it was just a huge disappointment. Though it was my first time joining the competition yet It still got me badly. Feels like a boulder smashing me. & I don't like those kind of feelings. I guess i am not that good enough after all. My so called worthless effort. sigh

The worthless effort

So yea, whatever right..Not everybody can win right.
Goodbye $2500 huhu.
Congrats to the winners.

M.I.A (Missing. In. Action)

2008-01-20T08:33:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile I haven't update my blog ey. What have I been doing lately? hmmm...Project, Lepaking, fixing teachers PC in staff room, preparing Sideshow for school's upcoming open day & oh yea...Guitar hero hohoho. So I'm kinda preoccupied lately & I'm kinda sneaking in some of my fun events within with my daily schedule. Its stressful what, 24/7 with school projects...I'll go mad for sure. I don't have this capability to withstand too much stress & pressure..Just add a bit of fun in it & I'll be ok.

Our presentation based on our project will be held on this coming February & We're a bit delay on our software due to to my oh so called great group mate. She's really getting on my nerve now. I've given her a task yet she haven't finish it yet instead she's doing something that is unrelevant to our project i.e creating cartoon impression of herself for animation ????. Like WTF..There's no cartoon for our software wah! Its not for kid man.Wth! Stop acting innocent there ok. No wonder people hate u. I'm so unlucky to have her as my groupmate. Alim konon..Stop acting as if ur perfect ok. Unfortunate for me I have to hold this grudge due to this project but i will let it out after this project done, It'll be a perfect timing I guess. Ok enough abt her, I'll deal wit her after the end of semester.

Here are some glimpse of what my software will look like.

ok now i'm off to bed now. School day tomorrow. hmmm

"....Perhaps this is what I'm destined for"

Hello 2008!

2008-01-01T05:52:00.000-08:00

Happy new year everyone!

Ms KB happening was right after all

2007-12-28T06:33:00.000-08:00

Ms KB happening was right after all

So sunday was a boring day as usual, at the same time mommy wanted to go to the saloon so me n my sis might as well joined her. So i was thinking that today would be a great day to take a pictures at KB town using my dad's Nikon camera plus i wanted to take a picture of the telepone booth for my design for this this tel bru design competition. So after picture taking some places at KB i've founded that KB is not that bad after all. hehe. & yea , I also went to BJ archery. Go & try it, its fun. $6.50 for one bundle and free one bundle. One bundle consist of 10 arrows. 20 arrows altogether. Not bad ey ...

KB TOWN

home.

momy at saloon.

ahh...mums~

*cough*o_O

WYWY

they've changed their names to "YWY" o_O

My fav, Teh C Ping Kuching

SOON LEE PANDAN

Oh come on~~

Daddy huhu

M&M *slurp*

Bonzai outside soon lee

BJ ARCHERY

Efra hehe

Im off now,..gotta wake up early tomorow cause I have to renew my I.C. My I.C. now is broken into pieces, more like a jigsaw puzzle to me sigh. anyway nyt2 ppl.

"Words aptly spoken to describe you"

Old fashioned adiladha's gathering at my place.

2007-12-21T23:47:00.000-08:00

Thursday was the Adiladha's celebration day, so we decided to celebrate it at my place this year. Of course all our family were invited & also some of my friends. It was fun though its kinda crowded like sardine in a can huhu. Overall I would say it was ok..

Here some of the pics taken by me during the the celebration.(with a vintage touch)

Qomar.

Zaza

The cousins

Feasting time.

The newlyweds. Bem & ka' dian

*cough*group photo; Boon, ayoiness, qomar, me, kadafi, dady jul & koboi huhu

Nokia adverts. huhu

ok i'm off playing cs now. & School holidays is coming to end soon. boo! =/

The devils upset Anfield again.

2007-12-16T07:46:00.000-08:00

MU did it again by beating Liverpool by 1 goal. Thanks to Teves, liverpool is now slipping their chance to catch up MU, Arsenal & Chelsea for the EPL title. MU rule! wahahaha

Manchester United 1 - 0 Liverpool
Teves

Tagged by "NISAH HEHE".

2007-12-13T21:08:00.000-08:00

Tagging rules;

1. each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each Blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and read your blog.

Eight random facts/habits about me;

1. I love ciggies (That specific person used to called it cancer stick huhu).
2. If I die, I want lots of ciggies buried with me so when I'm bored in the coffin, i can just smoke under the six feet ground huhu.
3. Im into this dancing stuff but still a beginner though.
4. I gain weight every time I eat . duhhh~ * apakaannn~*
5.I laughed so loud & its my nature. huhu
6. I tend to forget & I dont know why huhu.*Its not because that I'm getting old ok peeps*
7. I talk TOO much craps since I got pulled out of my mums womb huhu.
8. I love playing card tricks. U wana see? huhu

I tagged;

Qomar, Lulu, Nisah, Lisa, Zaf, fii , hum & nena

Nobody can change the past

2007-12-11T11:12:00.000-08:00

Looking back at the past, I can tell that I was a pretty messed up kid. Seriously I was a very f***ed up kid. I've been a jerk, a rebel child, troublesome, selfish and what I hate most is that I hurt people's feelings. Everyday guilt will struck me & I'll never forgive myself for the things I've done. I deserved the hatred that I received from people. I can just see the hatred from the expression of their faces. I can see their looks saying "Jerk~" & "a**hole". Yet I don't mind. I just had to carry the burden & the mocking, well kinda. The one thing that I'm still hoping is for that people to forgive me *which will never happen, well just some people*. Of course I'm pissed about it sometime but what to do right..Past is past, we can't just undo it cause life is not a note book or Microsoft words (apakannn huhu). I wont say " If i could change the past, I would undo all the mistakes bla bla bla"...No, I wont. I will still carry on my life looking forward for a better future. If you want changes, this is the right time. Everything we do now will effect on your future. Theres no such thing as "Our future depends on our destiny". For now ,I'm still trying to change myself for a better future. To think of it, I'm still fortunate that I still have that special someone who still stick up with me. She has been my major inspiration to keep up my chins high and moved forward =). Besides her, I'm still glad that I have friends that still can be there for me. People do can change if they follow the wright route. I'm still keeping my hopes high & looking the brighter side of all odds. Well thats life for you. Don't complaint nor questioned it, solved it wisely.

"Where there is a question, there is an answer
Where there is a difficulty, there is a solution"

"Inspiration is everywhere, sometime you just have to spot it carefully"

"Past is memories, Present is reality & Future is dreams"

The return of the ayoiness

2007-12-10T12:45:00.001-08:00

Finally shahrol is back from perth!(of course along with his sweetheart,c Alisoh hehe)..So my heart is full of happiness. How I miss that chubby & sepet eye boy. Now we can hangout like we used to.(for now). Sorry lisa, I'll be taking over for now huhu. Just kidding. No worries, I'll prevent myself from flirting him hohoho. =p. We still can share him ryt? x)

Btw , he reminds me of Jack black. He is so like him. Trust me, he is.. huhu.

Lookin back at some of my previous work

2007-12-07T21:54:00.001-08:00

-Dedicated to the boys

-Something that I design for her

-Maybe this looks good in a mags

-My imaginary shampoo commercial huhu

-My first cartoon character

-This design earned me $50..Not much

-Not so angelic after all

-Nothin much

Imagination kills boredom

2007-12-07T11:32:00.000-08:00

Imagination kills boredom.

There is nothing wrong to imagine stuff or to be something that you can't never be. In my case, people who are into those Japanese anime thingy, I reckon that you imagine yourself to be a samurai. Seriously, sometime imagination can kill boredom. I recommended that it is better to do it in a group. Minimum requirement, two people. Do not play it with yourself. You don't wana let people think that you are crazy or something. haha. I know its kinda childish but its fun. Banar waa~! huhu

So..That day at ewen's place, me & ewen (my cuz) was bored like hell. So we went to this room where all his dady's old stuff are situated. So yea we kinda messed up with it & we decided to make things fun by taking his dad's graduation ropes,farmer hats and two wooden sticks. Guess what we dressed up as? a cool Japanese warriors HAHA. ( I knw~, lame-o). We were bored ok HAHA. So yea we were pretending fighting like those Japanese animes . We even try to speak Japanese which was all crap. We were like ;

Ewen : Nandayo! kotoko nomo otaka nimo....
me : AIshhhh! kodomo suzuki vitara
(people dont ask, I myself don't even know what the hell are we talking about)
Ewen : ..............
Ewen :ni ai cheng shinxen ni hau dim sam ni yo sifun wantan
Me : .......The hell!.oi! cina 2 eyh!! ukan jipun 2 panat!!
Ewen : ahhh~! inda kira, they all look the same to me. Mata sepet!
Me : Bayi ko! nyindir aku ka. Aku sepet kali ah!
Ewen :....... yetah kali 2 WAHAHAHA
Me : Bayi kali anak ni~

I knw, kesian wa kami 2. We were jobless ok huhu.We even record our own fighting scene haha. It was fun but its better if there was more people huhu. Unfortunately I cant find the video to post it so I guess picture would be ok. hehe

I don't know if we do look like a Japanese samurai huhu. I look like a farmer while Ewen looks like an Arabian hip hopper haha. Ok,its late now. The time shows 4 in the morning & I shud be in bed by now. Before that, we're having a poker night they all nena at wani's place later. I miss poker huhu. I'm off to bed now. See you in dreamland.

Fin

Conversations of the day

"Your butt is mine~~"
"No butt butt!"

"Bau Gucci's after shave"
"Aku rindu Uncle affandy calling me "Wang""
"Boredom can't f***"
"Old Mc fai had a farm E...I....E....I ....O~"

Words of the day

"Kodomo Lion"
"Apakannnn~~~~"
"After shave"
"Treat"
"Chicken dance"

Highlights of the day

Dinner at wywy, Qamar's treat
Qamar sembahyang Jemaah with his family, jadi Imam huhu
Rafi create blog for his assignment
Router fixed! =)*so far so good*
Rafi looks cheeky dancing to Usher's " U got it bad"
Qamar listening to Spice girl's "STOP" LOL

Random me

2007-12-07T04:38:00.000-08:00

My mum told me that I'm beautiful inside & outside especially my eyes. Its a special gift huhu. So I'm special ok! haha

This is what happens in class when Pressure meets boredom. We go cuckoo~ huhu

The 60's Moment LOL. Spot which is me?. I'll give u a hint.."Pink Ranger" HAHA
Can't believe that I'm posting this picture.
SPICE BOYS! LOL

This looks familiar..?? Reminds me of something hahaa

Who killed Mr MILO?

Yea I'm bored & I miss all the fun things we did. Sigh huhu. Oh yea between us, Qamar is listening Plus One "Last flight out". LOL jiwang laeee.HUAHUA. Ok stop.

King of the day

2007-12-03T21:39:00.000-08:00

So finally ebems status is now "married" huhu. Still can't believe that he is married already. All this times, he have been a big brother figure to me & a cool cousin to hangout with. All I can say is that wishing him a better & fortune life with his wife. We still gonna hang out & play futsal together right? hehe.

Here are some of the picture taken by me & my dad during the wedding ceremony. =)

Me, abg I & Mommy during Akad nikah

The girl (in pink) who caught my eyes ;) Sapa kan 2 c gades manes?? huhu

Getting ready for menginai . Ngam ka 2 menginai or is it berinai??? =/

Dangdut night LOL. We party like no others. huhu

Our very own Chris brown from Indonesia huhu.

A design as a gift from me to ebem. * Excluding the font on the picture though* hehe

Gangsta in blue. Our leader is at the middle wearing sunnies & blue tudong hoho

King of the day

The king & queen huhu

Its kinda late to post it due to my E speed connection kinda "sui" lately. Qamar told me thatmy router or is it wireless experiencing a clogged or something.sigh.

Positive note to start up your day

2007-11-30T10:44:00.001-08:00

"You'll never achieve real success unless
you like what you're doing."
Dale Carnegie

When art meets lousy whiteboard

2007-11-30T09:43:00.000-08:00

So holiday is coming (yipee me) so teachers rarely come to class meaning no class, no study, no bedtime story ( lecture ) from sir Kaled and yes, a break from projects & assignments. =). But then we were bored, really bored. Let me emphasize that again "BORED". Solution , drawing at our VERY lousy white board. Problem solved huhu.

Ok, thats me watering the flower. See how the flower turns out to be. Its growing healthy. Beautiful ey. ='). It takes effort people & my opinion is to drink LOTS of water hehe.

This is how i make the fertilizer. Some of you may wondering " What in the hell is that weird shape thing?". People let me answer your curiosity, that is my friend what I called 'Feces' better known as "SHIT". It's good for flowers cause it consist of different kinds of nutrition. HAHA. very healthy indeed ;)

I think you've already understand why i kept on saying "Lousy white board". Obviously from my picture says it all. We hardly can see what our instructor's is writing. The principal told us that there'll be a new white board coming soon but that was 1 or 2years back. Till now I didn't even see a single clean white board!. What the hell are they saying that for, to keep our spirits high?? *wow~~ that'll help* or maybe an excuse or something. Like last year, my instructors ordered us to clean the white board with this white board solution yet it can't be cleaned. But STILL they forced us to clean it. HOW THE HELL CAN WE CLEAN IT. THIS IS NOT SOME FREAKING ADVERT LIKE AXION or FABULUSO where you can just clean it by one wipe!! *The hell~!!* Anyway screw them cause there's a few month left then when I'm finish they can just kiss my ass goodbye. Then in future, I'll tell to my child that how screwed up my school was. & I'll go "Kids, don't ever go to that school cause they'll force you to clean a white board that is impossible to cleaned", " I know, they're cuckoo people" kesian

I think I'm too mean towards my school. NOT! haha. Other than that I guess they're better in term programing & SOME theories. SOME not all. hehe. I just love saying crappy things & I don't know why hehe. Nature I guess .

"From what we get,
we can make a living;
what we give, however,
makes a life."
Arthur Ashe

Suddenly it happens again..

2007-11-21T05:58:00.000-08:00

People will say that all problems comes with a solution. Then why can't I stop this feelings. I kept feeling uneasy lately. This problems of mine has messed up my mind real bad. I've tried to avoid it yet it kept coming & coming again. & today I've finished up one box of my ciggies but its still not enough for me. Yes, I'm a smokaholic(I don't know if there is a such word for this though hehe) Sigh. Bad ey but it helps. =)

All this times I've helped people with their problems but i myself can't even get myself to think straight & I can't even solve this problem *sigh*. Seriously you won't wanna be in my head cause its pretty messed up. I wish that I could just erase it just by clicking "Delete", life will be much be simple that way i guess... Unfortunately its not but Neh~, I wouldn't complain that life is being unfair and all those crap cause I know god have their reasons to give us this so called burden. It's up to ourselves to how we solve it. & i know at this stage of age,people like me normally face this kind of problems and its normal for us to be like this. Thats what I believe & i'll try to convince myself to think it at the brighter side. But yes~ I won't lie, sometimes I can be very denial & blame everything/everyone bla bla bla.

Some of you may wondering that this about someone or past right? Sorry,the answer is no guys. Its just something that have been bothering my mind . Plus Its healthy to just let it all out & it helps a bit but its ok, better than nothing right?. I'm still hoping that this will be over so i can carry on my normal life

The end..

"Well done is better than
well said."

Accidents happens....

2007-11-17T19:35:00.000-08:00

Morning, i received a text message from ka' Leza saying that Iman firdaus & his friends was in an accident. I was stunned cause the 1st message was telling that he passed away but turns out it was not him instead it was his friend. Wrong info sigh. Anyway , lets just pray for him so he'll get well soon. Gosh it's 3 times now including this one, life's are taken from an accident. Its not that safe to drive at this time i guess. =/

Get well soon, man.

Food for thoughts

2007-11-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

"Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have."
Norman Vincent Peale

Quotes for the week

2007-11-16T07:37:00.000-08:00

Here are some words of wisdom i found from the net. Enjoy.

Monday, November 12, 2007
"To do more for the world does for you—
that is success."
Henry Ford

Tuesday, November 13, 2007
"Life is to be lived, enjoy it."
M. K. Soni

Wednesday, November 14, 2007
"When you want advice,
ask someone who’s done it successfully."
Cindy Francis

Thursday, November 15, 2007
"When you start coasting,
there is only one way to go and that is downhill."
Dr. Randy Kerry

Friday, November 16, 2007
"When you have money,
think of the time when you had none."
Proverb

Saturday, November 17, 2007
"Behave toward everyone as if
receiving a great guest.
Confucius

Sunday, November 18, 2007
"Well done is better than
well said."
Proverb

Friday, Oh friday...

2007-11-16T02:55:00.002-08:00

Friday? hmm.. Nothing much.. Just like any ordinary day after thursday. As usual woke up around 12+. Then went to my aunts place then qamar text me up asking me accompany him for awhile cause his sis & her friends wants to go wywy. So we chill there till 4 then went homw cause qamar have to go to rehearsal for his speech.

So I'm home doing nothing. Boredom indeed. Oh yea so i just carry on downloading movies.Cos lately I've been downloading movies so i don't need to go the shop & buy movie worth $4-7 . Downloading DVD rip movies = Priceless (Y).Surprisingly I've downloaded quite a lot of movies.I'm a sucker to movies.Trust me, its all good quality movies. (DVD 9) Here are some of the list.

1.Hot Rod (comedy)
2.Kickin it Old school (Comedy)
3. Vacancy (Thriller)
4.Chuck & Larry (Comedy)
5.Constantine ( Action)
6.Fido (Comedy)
7.Smoking Aces (Action)
8.Death Proof (Thriller)
9.Sex is Zero (Comedy)(Korean)
10.Redline (Action)
11The Contractor(Action)
12. Spongebob the movie (animation) (comedy)
13.Die Hard 4(Action)
14.Knocked Up (Comedy)
15. Simpsons the movie (Animation)(Comedy)
16. Blades of Glory(Comedy)
17. The accepted(Comedy)
18.Italian Job 1968 (Action)
19. License to Wed (Comedy)
20.Equilibrium (Action)
21. Spice world (NOT! JUST KIDDING, i wont download it in a million years HAHA)

Not bad ey. 20 movies and many more in process of downloading. =D
Just wanna save it for December's long holiday break =D. See, it's priceless my friends .

Somehow it reminds me of myself

2007-11-06T01:30:00.000-08:00

Artist : Musiq Soulchild
Song : Teach me

[Verse 1:]
I was told the true definition of a man was to never cry
Work till you tired (yeah) got to provide (yeah)
Always be the rock for my family, protect them by all means
(and give you the things that you need, baby)
Our relationship is (suffering) trying to give you (what I never had)
You say I don't know to love you baby
Well I say show me the way
I keep my feelings (deep inside I)
Shadow them (with my pride eye)
I'm trying desperately baby just work with me

[Chorus:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how to love

[Verse 2:]
I was always taught to be strong
never let them think you care at all
Let know one get close to me
Before (you and me)
I den' shared things wit chu girl about my past
That I'd never tell to anyone else (no)
Just keep it to myself, (yes)
Now I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this but
See I'm really try'na (change now)
Wanna love you better, (show me how)
I'm tryin desperately baby hey

[CHORUS:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how love

[Bridge:]
Ain't nobody ever took the time to try to teach me what (love was but you)
And I ain't never trust anyone enough to let em tell me (what to do)
Teach me how to show it and show me how to love you baby
(Teach me please just show me yeah)
Cause I'm (willing)
To let (go) of my (fears) girl I'm (serious)
About (all that I've said)
Girl I (wanna love you) with (all my heart)
Baby show me where to start

[CHORUS:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how love

[VAMP:]
Girl just teach me how to love you better
You know I wanna love you better girl

Something that i would love to own

2007-11-04T10:15:00.000-08:00

What is something that i would love to own? hmm... Besides car, i think i would choose a digital camera. Not just a an ordinary digital camera but a NIKON D3! =) . I'm kinda new with it so i don't really know much about cameras but no worries, i have my dad for more info. Yea daddy have his own NIKON. Don't ask me what model it is cause i forgot. huhu. Like i said, i'm to this stuff. But i really do wanna have that for a gift from ;) * hint to daddy* hahaha

Check this out, isn't that camera look sweet!I just cant wait to have this thin on my hand. huhu. I can picture myself taking picture everywhere !! haahaha. snap there, click here, snap those, click these * imagining*. haha.

Designs part 1

2007-11-04T09:15:00.000-08:00

Oh how i miss designing using adobe. Its been a while. I miss adobe photoshop. Here are some of the designs i made for the last few days.

Remember him?

2007-10-23T00:56:00.000-07:00

I know most of us was a big fan of this guy when u were young... I know i was. & i cant believe that i was looking up to this guy. He's the savior of the universe man. I'm talking about ULTRAMAN guys! haha. Can't believe that kids do still looking up to this superhero.(besides Power Ranger though).

ULTRAMAN before in action *He have boobs wahahahah*

Well i got news for them, Ultraman will no longer be saving us from monster man. That's old skool shit man. He's making his own music video. and look what i found in you Tube haha! You all got to see this man.

Sweeto~

2007-10-20T00:15:00.000-07:00

Look what i found in YouTube, my ex-coordinator's (ct fatimah) sweet video done by her hubbies huhu. How i wish i can create that video for my gf huhu. We miss u teacher. =)

George nozuka - "Last time"

2007-10-20T00:02:00.001-07:00

Convoy to bandar 17-10-07

2007-10-17T11:19:00.000-07:00

After 2 years of Raya & lot of excuses , i finally joined my classmates raya to Bandar last Wednesday. huhu. =) Besides my classmates, Tyma<3 also accompanied me to bandar on that day =8). It was ok, had fun though. Not all of my classmates joined , only Lina, Nisa, The Twins( Hafiz & Haris), Mad Lin(Dilin), tyma & me. While Others, Busy =/ .

Here are some of the pics that me & tyma took on that day.

me & the twins at dilin's

Dilin baru bangun tido LOL.(dilin's crib)

Group photo at Neneng's:
-C hafiz mandi soya bean

( Real man wear purse) wahaha =s

=8)

2007-10-15T11:24:00.000-07:00

My very own blog & my first post =8D