Huge Disapoint ment.

I was shocked when Qamar told me that the Tel Bru front cover design results for top 25 are out. So i was eagerly to check my mail hoping that I qualified for the top 25, at least. Results, no e mail from tel bru meaning I didn't qualified at all!. When I checked the website, they've already Unveil the winners. Obviously i didn't win it. It got me real bad which i don't know why. I was hoping that I could win it.
The 1st prize was $2500
2nd prize $1500
3rd prize $ 500

Thats quite a lot of money you know. Plus it's not just about the money, honestly...It was also for my parents. I really do wanna prove to them that i can be a winner at something. All this times, I've been a failure in many ways. For once, I really want to win something, something that is big like this competition. I was hoping that I could win ,badly.. I could just feel it you know. Do you ever feel like as if you could feel that you'll get it & you'll know that you gonna win?.. Do you? But turns out I fail, not just to myself but also to every people who have been giving me hope especially to my parents. In the end, it was just a huge disappointment. Though it was my first time joining the competition yet It still got me badly. Feels like a boulder smashing me. & I don't like those kind of feelings. I guess i am not that good enough after all. My so called worthless effort. sigh

The worthless effort

So yea, whatever right..Not everybody can win right.
Goodbye $2500 huhu.
Congrats to the winners.